Friday, September 4, 2009

If you haven’t have guessed, I love quotes. It is like something to hold onto when you don’t know how to find the words yourself. I was looking through some that I keep together in a pile and ran across this one: “The most successful people are those who are good at plan B.” It got me thinking. Really what most of our lives exists of are a lot of plan Bs, and the ability for us to succeed in life is based on how well we can adapt to the plan we ended up with, instead of the plan we were intending to go with in the first place. I believe that is where I am. I never planned on living my life with the scars I have endeared, but being as permanent as they may be, I must work at seeing them as a beauty mark. Because of what I know now, because of what I have seen and what I have been through, I am definitely on my plan B, or rather C or D. The first few attempts of rebounding from my assault weren’t very successful. The constant drinking and living a life without God didn’t work, nor did ignoring the situation in its entirety, either. So now I am going with accepting it as a part of my past that has molded me in a way to be able to help those in my future. I don’t want it to define me; I am so much more than just that part. But I did have to learn to accept that it is a part of me. What I have come to understand now is that it doesn’t have to be a part that is holding me back. It can be a part that has allowed me to bloom into a person I never knew was possible. That, through the trials and pain I have had to overcome, character has been built and wisdom has been won. Qualities that I would probably not possess otherwise. Not things I ever intended on gaining in the way I did, or really, even knew I wanted or needed, but, nonetheless, now that I am on plan B…they have become very beneficial for my success, and, honestly, I am grateful for that.